Well today was a very boring day. I got up and went to French class then went home to fix a decoration for mom. Then I spent the rest of the day reading the paper, reading my book, playing on the computer and watching T.V. I just had no motivation to do anything.
The quarter has finally come to an end. I’m a bit disappointing myself because I let my grades slide towards the end. I just couldn’t keep the motivation that I started out with. I still have the option to take the finals but they are cumulative and would involve a ton of studying.
Ok, first things first. This quarter sucked. Actually I ended up going to lunch with ____ quite a bit but I think I lost my crush. I just don’t have the same feelings that I started out with. She finally did break up with her boyfriend. However, that was a boyfriend of three years and she needs some time to be single. I’m not in love with her anymore. Funny how I had the biggest crush on her and it just went away. I do think I’ve figured out how to keep me from going insane though. I need to get involved with more stuff to keep the boredom away. I feel alone so much and all my friends have gone on with their lives and I’m kind of stuck in limbo.
I hate being here and cannot wait to go to France. I’ve been doing some networking and will continue when I finally get a break after this quarter. I plan on writing a bunch of companies and getting my name in the door. I really cannot wait until I learn French and can go on with my life. I hate being here all by myself all the time and not really progressing with my life except for schoolwork. I did have an interview with the Ohio Department of International Trade for an internship and hope I get it. The chances could be slim though because there are other applicants. It would look good on my resume and also give me something to do. When I have too much free time I end up wasting more time than if I was busy. I feel like I accomplish so much more when I am busy.
